|
|
well.. now i'm munching a peach again.
this is boring but relaxing day.finally we didnt meet for a day.
haha. own self study time. tomorrow is our comon test and her mock exams.
i'm gonna read through again later on. hope i can do well.
i won't be able to get to see her tomorrow again. sighs.
she will be having tuition while i will be having my common test.
while i'm free in the morning, she wil be in school having her mock exams.
someone is playing with us. lol. well.. absence makes a heart fonder.
i believe "home" on monday will be damn boring and silent.
no one will be there. junhao will be having tuition.
Bobby and cousin will be having common test till 6.30pm.
qi and all won't be down due to prelims.
well.. i can see what's gonna happen tomorrow. one word_BORING.
i hope time can pass and travel till thursday so we can finally relax and not study all the time.
how about my guitar lessons? i must go for tomorrow if there is one? or not go?
i got common test on tuesday too.
shall decide again. lol.
anyway,i promised u that i will tell u what i miss out on blogging right.
here it is...
i like the feeling and the way when u twist and touch my back of my head. |
ranted by Bobby
@
7/31/2005 01:20:00 PM comments
  |
|
|
|
|
Saturday, July 30, 2005 |
|
sighs. i hate people to be late. haha! im kidding.
well.. i just like her expression when she is late. make use of the chance to tease her.
she is like smiling and nothing to say at all. haha! well.. i won! (:
waited for so many people just for a simple breakfast. some late and some others went home.
andre was nice enough to treat us breakfast for it is his birthday (:
later breakfast, we decided to head for junhao's house
everything went well in fact or maybe should i say better in a way.
well.. i think that day got to come one day that we gotta be together openly.
shall consult my mum and all. yeaps.
shouldnt be a problem. (: i hope time can stop at some time of the moment.
later on, my whole day was spoilt with a tummy ache. it was terrible.
i can't really walk properly and i think she was affected like being worried.
now im still feeling the pain.
alright,kimli and esther are confirmed back to normal self with all of us.
but shiangg ling still remain another mystery loss all of a sudden.
as for junhao and alex and dominick, they are still my best buddies forever.
i really like them alot.
JUNHAO the one closest to me in a way that understand me and giving in to me most of the time. thanks for all the time. thanks for ur second hand goods too.
alex always giving me valuable advices for everything.
dominick for his forever lame jokes. haha!
last and for all, that girl who thinks i probably forget about her.
but she is the one i love most for who she is.
SEE IT!? haha! =P what's that word that she mentioned wrongly again? any idea? ;p |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/30/2005 10:20:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Friday, July 29, 2005 |
|
phew. this morning i purposely woke up early just to meet her and sent her to school.
i made plans with wenxiong and decided to give her a surprise. yea. bought her breakfast too.
too bad the surprising thing nvr come to a complete end. but still, i think she is quite happy.
and like loss of words. just keep laughing for nothing. haha. she is my MAD thing. haha!
anyway, went home to study later and waited till noon to meet her again. haha!
went to study with her and nik,wx and dominick. i fell asleep as i'm really tired.
she studied the wrong thing after studying for one hour? -faints- cute one.
don't know who says wanna inCENTIVES study hor? i mean intensive.
sorry people once again because im influenced! haha! oops!
sometimes i do get sour for her doing some stuffs la but i will just keep it to myself and remain quiet. some things are meant to be controlled. so just let it be and close one eye.
wanted to send her home but she changed her mind and went back to court and then dinner.
went my house to deliver my mum's dinner and let her wash up and CHANGE into MY clothes.
i'm so nice! hhaha!! nono.. i'm humble. lol.
sent her home in the end.
everything just went so smoothly today and we get much more closer like i said.
we can just talked out unhappiness out and solve it easily as both parties are giving in.
well.. what can i said? love is in the air.
two become one as our hands are joined together in future.
court seem so fun and everything but i think still lack of people. esp shiangg. kimli and esther are back. alex and junhao. most of them but it is still weird. well..
i enjoyed myself today yet again but just abit of upset in between.
still... i'm loving you (: |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/29/2005 11:44:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Thursday, July 28, 2005 |
|
things just gets better as each day goes past.
simply understanding each other and knowing each other.
but the bad thing for today is that i injured myself.
not exactly, i got blisters on both legs. but the blister on the right leg contains plenty of blood.
michelle was nice enough to care and tell me to stop playing but due to sportsmanship,i can't stop just like that. we still won in the end. i can see that she is worry and concern.
i think she got me a bottle of mineral water which requires a long journey just to get it.
later i accompany her to qi house to cut and let the blood drip off. she was like eeeekkkk...
so scared and weak .. oops! ahaha kidding. thanks for ur concern (:
hope tomorrow will be slightly better? i will study with her till she is CANfident! oops! i mean confident. influence is a big serious matter. =P
i did tried today but i dunnnoe whether u realised it? well..
hope for a fast recovery.
just a few more weeks. (:
hope u really studying real well for your oncoming exams. im supporting u always (: |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/28/2005 08:50:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Wednesday, July 27, 2005 |
|
everyone just seem to know i'm sad and down.
ok.. perhaps i'm really moody and the amount of workload adding to it.
seeing her disappointed and moody face today just makes my whole day down.
not because i'm blaming her but i think i share her burden too?
seeing her this way just makes me gradually hurt too.
certified that i really don't dare to try it anymore. u should get me?
how can i tell you how much i really love you?
i really don;t know how to express in other ways?
i really tried and tried. but i don't get back somehow.
i waited and hold on. i really do.
i can really do anything just for you. really anything. believe it or not?
i'm worrying for you every moment esp this afternoon.
worrying is a habit too.
i never type back an one word sms to anyone before and u r the first one.
and i seriously don't wish for that.
how can i know how u feel. i wish i could.
so that i can be at ur needs every moment.
i dun wish to say so much. is useless ranting here. i will prove.
...and i just want you to know, i'm in love with you. just you (: |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/27/2005 09:27:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
|
now early morning i'm here blogging and i'm seriously tired but i couldn't sleep.
the machine seem to have some default errors. i woke up on purpose just to "accompany"
her to school just to make her happy and just a kind of moral support.
but i think we don't belong to that category of that. she don't like it or simply treat it something normal? i'm not sure but i'm too disappointed to go to bed again so i decided to blast the music on my mp3. people who knows me well knows why i do that. well... i think it still needs some maintanence. sometimes i just wanna hear somethings sweet or maybe just some things from her but it won't come out like the past.
i mean.. alright. is unfair to compare here like that. is two different people.
but what can i do? i don't want you to be seem looking at me saying "how come you are full of problems always"? yes. i don't want you to feel upset over it too. but who else can i go to?
vinz ? i felt i had troubled him enough. he got his own problems too. hope your proposal works out well. but no matter what happened, i will still be there to listen to your problems too. (:
well... for mich, i still have to wait for 8 hours and 26 minutes.
it may seem short for u but is so long for me. shall find something to do.
*time past faster please* -prays-
must i be really that bad to neglect her till she knows i'm not around?
issit that girls start to cherish guys until the guy start to stop doing all thos sweet things?
i don't wanna think about this too.
this song is for you.
When you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
Though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high
And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you
Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love
Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible
Is easy when we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high
reds are much more emphasis & stands out than white. |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/27/2005 07:54:00 AM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Tuesday, July 26, 2005 |
|
today i overslept and missed my breakfast appointment with wenxiong.
my hair appointment with the salon. well.. had a haircut again and much neater now.
anyway, i slept at 3am yesterday night because i watched initial d. tanning in your sunray...
well.. i got addicted to that song but then at first i don't like it. due to someone influence
who got me addicted to the song and her? haha! well.. everything went smoothly and all.
met her and we studied together and play basketball awhile to relax.
seriously i haven't been playing much after her appearance. i mean not to the fullest.
but this is natural sometimes. u can't have all the things to you at one time.
guitar, basketball, mich," home",studies, and my brothers in court?
i guess it will be mich and her studies,follow by the people in court, and my own studies.
this 3 things had been on my mind since then and it can't allow anything to enter at the moment.
is selfish i know but at least i know i neglected non-living things instead of living things.
we are just like machine. yes, you and me.
there are still alot of things that are not properly fixed (as in the different lifestyle)
until everything is fixed on and working (that's when we are together)
we will be going smoothly and everything (honeymoon period)
but at times, after so much usage, there sure to be faulty area at some parts (some hurdles)
but after some repair and stuffs it will b working well again OR maybe better (cold war & closer)
so this is how i termed it upon thinking about it on the bus home.
it was quiet on that night and everything just came to me like that.
we just keep getting better and closer but the machine still needs time for testing.
wahaha. weird theory. i believe we can hold on.
-what happened yesterday night,the family of broken pieces had came true.
it just happen due to some quarrels and neglection. misunderstanding? maybe yes or no.
|
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/26/2005 09:00:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Monday, July 25, 2005 |
|
i'm tired.
i'm envious of wx and nik.
i wanna be like them but is hard from the rate we are going through now.
everything seem so untold and secretive.
is just a feeling. yapps. |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/25/2005 11:01:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
|
i'm so stressed with 5 projects.
two semester tests coming up.
teaching her what i can teach her for her upcoming mock exams.
facing the problems in the court
trying to endure and overcome the barriers from the past.
wanting her to be happy every moment.
one week to do all these stuffs?
and due to my itchy hands making me see some unseen stuffs which made me so down.
i don't want you to delete please. i don't want to intrude in your privacy and past.
i tried to overcome what i do not dare to do in for the past few years.
after the breakup, i'm unable to overcome everything.
sometimes i wanted to try it out, but i just can't to put my hand to it.
you took it off or maybe you don't know but maybe we are not even an item yet.
but one thing i know, i still failed to overcome that barrier of my past.
is difficult and there is no help at all. i tried but i failed.
therefore,i'm tired and losing CANfident(i mean confident).
maybe i don't even wanna try it anymore.
will it be the end for both of us like how me and others in the past just lose halfway thru an item?
i'm confused and sorry to say everything out :'( but this is how i feel. |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/25/2005 08:02:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
|
THIS ENTRY IS SPECIALLY FOR THE THREE GIRLS OUT THERE!
name shall be mentioned not like someone always INDIRECTLY saying others.
ESTHER , SHAINGGLING AND KIMLI ! big enough!?
well, first of all, i'm here to say, please talk face to face if you all are unhappy or whatever.
especially to shainggling and kimli at the moment for shooting through blogs and behind my back. hum ar ? come on la, how old already still behave like that?
can't think maturely? do i have to stuck with all the court people till i can't have my own LOVELIFE? what rubbish coming from all of you?! no one in the court complains, only the three of you. others are constantly supporting me to go for it! you three!? complaining? i'm not someone who you can climb over the head and take care of all your problems everyday that happen in the court. and SHAINGG, you are the one who told me you dislike ESTHER in a way that she attract attention and all. now saying me!? don't be a hypocrite can? i hate to say this but you force me to do so. whoever got that letter behind all this thing, i shall take a good aim at you and shoot you down badly with a bad fall! you never know how MEAN i can beif you want me to. ALL these while who had been taking care of the things in the court. and ask leeleng and all that join us for the game and late night out, who doesnt had fun!? everyone did and those who didn't are those that keep to their own group of threes! oh.. im saying three of you! what ndp preview and syf thingy!? mum coming to fetch you because is late night and kim? sister problem? but maybe kimli i can understand her. she can fits into the group because she is more initiative in a way talking to us. who has been organising things and all just to make things are going fine. and PLEASE forsaken don't say u tried to join us in the fun because i didn't see any proof at all. so kindly repharse your line. think before u say? WE lead our OWN LIFE too and don't expect the same us over and over again because we are not that miserable people like you all who will think LOWLY of urself when things happen. always looking pessismistic!
i'm gonna break this home for now and it is made up of the guys we used to hangout in the court. which girls who wanna stay and is enjoying themselves in it , just stayed. those who just can't get used to it can kindly fuck off and form ur own group and FIND A NEW HOME because i believe our home is getting fine now just that all of us are busy with our stuffs. think of what you all wanna be. be angry with it after reading, but im not gonna care because u all made me to do so.
i don't need people who don't understand me! one thing about bobby, he knows his surrounding well so watch out! STAY AWAY IF YOU ARE UNHAPPY! |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/25/2005 12:04:00 AM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Sunday, July 24, 2005 |
|
i believe i'm nice enough for everything i had done for you.i tried my best but maybe i'm still not used to your way of living and expressing.sometimes i really gotta tell myself "i'm gonna give myself more time as i mentioned before"it can come to an extend when sometimes things just get out of hand.insecurity is one big part that is living in between us, perhaps just me.i know you are already trying to show you are nice and everything therefore i don't really requested more from you as i really don't want to spoil the whole day just by making a comment.i want our every moment to be happy and memorable.i won't force you to do the stuffs you won't like too like taking a simple picture?perhaps i tend to be more emotional and keep note of every detail of our stuffs.like the first day we met? the first liking? the first of everything?i don't think anyone will be like me that crazy but i just like being myself.i'm glad you are happy with you achievement in your abilities to study your whole physics book and i want the best for you in everything. everything i do, will you like it? will u be affected or something?is an extra burden that i'm gonna take when you entered my life. i'm not complaining here but i want you to know, i'm willing to take your burden. things will just get better isnt it?i'm gonna define all odds and work hard for the future.i hope you guys friends will understand and not suan you or whatever shit.endure for 20 more days. i can do it. god will plan more and help me find out more,most imptly understand you better.
every time spent with you is precious.-at least who took one like this.
because you live, i live?
we shall see about it.
missing you... |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/24/2005 10:42:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
|
met up with mich for early breakfast and revision this morning. later on, it is join by alot of others people and ended up playing instead of seriously studying. nvm. TMR she is coming over and i'm gonna make her distraction free instead. haha! hopefully. well.. time spent are happy and fast but some things just happen but luckily is over. sorry for all the upsets caused. things are improving and all. well.. now is just the matter of asking and time. hope for the best. and the court this few days just keep getting bored and bored. lesser people and colder atmosphere.everyone seem busy and stuffs. i shall be away for a period of time too since there is nothing important held nowadays. i enjoyed my day though some thing cropped up. thanks!
-the second consecutive days we are meeting out.
she looks funny but cute here. haha! sorry for the ignoring thing.
 |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/24/2005 12:28:00 AM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Saturday, July 23, 2005 |
|
finally all my plans for qiqi birthday is done.
done shopping with mich,nik and april for her present.
saw val and friends there. so happy!
anyway, i finally got time for my own stuffs.
my work,projects,lovelife,bball and guitar as i dun have much to plan for my home people birthday anymore. well.. i realised my bball skills are indeed getting lousier than ever because of the injury which still lingers around. sighs.
well... everything went well today and i hope the people in the court can get closer and maybe take a photo which is think is IMPOSSIBLE. sighs. hope you are happy qiqi. thinking about tmr match with j style members made me emotional and moody at this wee hour. 1.23am.
everyone has been wondering what are we? but i'm confused by it too. when asked whether we are an item, we said no. but seriously is still not an item. but in time to come, maybe yes? but when she said that no, i feel kinda insecured at times but i just don't know why. is a feeling. what can i do? am i in love? well. i guess i am. hope things will get better each day.
meeting her tomorrow morning for breakfast and studying. i needa help her too.
it seem so near yet so far. should i tell her this or should i not?
-that is the smile that captivate my soul. made me feel loved again. made me dare to move on with life and throwing the past. and maybe thanks to *denise for what she had done.
"she" is fun to be with ,
"she" is always the one who will talk back and suan me,
"she" is one who had totally ifferent character from others,
"she" is always so innocent and funny but can do that hurts me at times unknowingly,
"she" s the one sent down from heaven, right before my eyes.
"she" is my chilly padi! (:
|
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/23/2005 01:31:00 AM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Sunday, July 17, 2005 |
|
i am seriously tired and worn out again.
this is feeling horrible.
i need a break from everything but i can't.
but if my "home" need me,i must be there for sure.
i will be there tomorrow. hope everything will be fine.
i'm putting down everything but not that chilly. |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/17/2005 10:48:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Thursday, July 14, 2005 |
|
one fighting incident almost happen in class today.
first incident i saw in poly life and in my class to be worst.
well.. hope everything will be fine between them.
digital electronics is fine but c programming is another problem.
hope people in court today had fun but i wasn't there. :(
guitar was great too. learnt strumming ! (:
when will my injured right hand recovered. i wanna play properly. |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/14/2005 10:15:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Wednesday, July 13, 2005 |
|
i'm feeling down
i'm feeling blue
i'm feeling moody
i'm confused
i got loads of things to do and handle
birthday,exams,projects,equiz,selr revision and etc..
|
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/13/2005 08:33:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Tuesday, July 12, 2005 |
|
i realised after all i still love everything associated with english.
like english type of songs, girls, the way i speak, and many others.
i don't know why but i think it suits me more. chinese seem to be like escaping from my grip.
had a wonderful but shaggy day in the rain playing with junhao and others.
i'm starting to treasure all the people around me and the sunshine boy is back already i guess.
i've loads of works and projects and committment to plans.
i'm gonna make myself really busy and fun.
had a night dinner cum supper with the SN2 and SGS peeps.
it was fun and filling. (:
hope for the next one real soon.
hope everything goes well for both my meis in their selections and studies. |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/12/2005 10:46:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Sunday, July 10, 2005 |
|
well. i just finished changing the part for the LINK WORLD part.
guys can go there and take alook. yeapps.
i'm so bored but i have tons of hmwk and projects to rush.
html project isn't a problem and another one is about wireless category project.
well.. later heading for "home" so i must get my work done.
seeya around. (: |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/10/2005 12:39:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
|
night out in the court till 12am plus today is indeed fun. i mean yeah.
thanks for all the company and the laughters brought back,
presenting jokes,riddles and lames jokes made it much more fun.
i can see some people are with an attitude today. owe me a present.
i'm darn tired and i gotta rush my project tomorrow.
i can do it. off to my sack. nights (:
i love my "home".
god bless everyone out there whoever is troubled with their stuffs.
u know i'm refering to you reading this. |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/10/2005 01:52:00 AM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Saturday, July 09, 2005 |
|
to kim and some other peeps in court or whoever.
comparing looks and stuffs isn't that important.
just that whoever that a good heart is the most prettiest and nicest thing!
before comparing,take a good lok at yourselves before commenting so that you know your own standard. i'm not trying to be nasty here. but you reap what you sow.
so yeah.. goes out to you all people.
what you all can't appreciate here will be much appreciated loads but other people out there.
that's just for info in case you didn't know.
well.. i'm not in the mood today as *he left for army.
yes. that one who always scolded me for my own good.
he will be fine and may god bless him.
ps.forgive me for being crude with my words. |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/09/2005 12:24:00 AM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Thursday, July 07, 2005 |
|
phew. finally got a break after learning how to use the dreamweaver.
later after that, 630pm i got a guitar lesson to attend.
i'm oh-so-tired. don't think i can get to see the bball family peeps.
hopefully i can see one or two. :( i'm so tired!
everything has been going well and fine for me.
now just need sufficient rest. two projects for me to rush.
mummy... i want to go home... |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/07/2005 01:42:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Wednesday, July 06, 2005 |
|
the smiles and laughters are back to the court.
but kimli,qi and jovina and some others miss out.
shiangg and esther are alright for now. thanks !
i felt so accomplished for their changes.
thanks shaingg for the 3MM pick! haha! tmr 2nd guitar lessons.
today i was really tired that i felt asleep before going to basketball.
is time for me to really start work and work on my projects.
do meaningful things for right now. everything is going fine and in order.
must gather all the family for a outing to make it better. sooner..
hope everything will be fine for all the people out there.
i'm deprived of sleep and time... yawns. |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/06/2005 09:43:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Tuesday, July 05, 2005 |
|
before i start serious stuffs. here are some cold and dirty lame jokes by dominick.
1.what are in common between a man and a rat?
<3>
<3
<3>
<3>
-they keep finding holes.(brrr....)
here goes another one.
2.what are common between a woman and a monkey?
<3>
<3>
<3>
<3>
<3
-they are happy whenever they have bananas. ahah!
alright, BIG NEWS! i saw DAVID BECKHAM today in my school nanyang poly. he came over and promote the upcoming olympic event. HE is handsome and well-built. well... once in a lifetime thing. isn't that great?! we waited for 2 hours but ended looking at him for the pathetic 2minutes? but better than nothing. hee. i'm trying to keep everything going well in the court and stuffs but today another conflict again. i know one has been tryign to endure but then the other just keep on going? argh. i wanted to raise my voice but i don't think i got that right but what should i do? someone advice me? i don't want to be like having conflict with that person after that but what can i do? i tried the soft method which doesn't work on her. should i try the hard way and make it look weird meeting each other? i'm confused. hope qi will be fine with her brother. projects all coming up. time for serious work. i gotta do well.
-this is gonna be the new bobby with that baby of his. creation from annette.thanks girls! (: 
junhao! i'm coming in! haa! got notes for you to read liao hor ! haha!
and oh yah... jovina and co lost to me ! awww... train harder yeah?
|
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/05/2005 08:55:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Monday, July 04, 2005 |
|
another set back yet again today.
thought everything will be fine in j8.
but it turned out worst. sighs.
i'm really tired and sick sometime. can't u all like have some control over feelings?
i know is hard but try. because im trying my best to help all of you.
i will endure all this. hold on everyone.
-i'm starting to fade off just like this picture. sooner or later...
 |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/04/2005 11:22:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
Friday, July 01, 2005 |
|
i'm back finally after 7 hours of basketball.
haha! that feeling is tiring but happy.
doing alot of physical training given by those girls from NPCC.
those sgs girls. anyway,thanks esther and shiangg for the bubble tea but don't treat me like i'm so unreasonable leh. don't need everytime buy for me one. thanks anyway!
hope shaingg ling and alex is getting better. they seem down. god bless them (:
now my hands,stomach and legs are numb. but i know after that, i will be FITTER and STRONGER. i will do any sacrifices for my body. yea !
this morning saw melanie and walked with her to school.
the feeling and everything we talked is simply weird. not the usual self anymore. sighs.
hope for the better. i'm purposely making myself so worn out so i don't have to think about anything. i wanna make myself blackout and fall into the world of lala land and not think and do anything. everything will be fine and going according to god plan. i miss life. but now i'm doing well and fine in life!
smiles (: |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/01/2005 11:46:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
|
i'm really worn out this days.
even on my way home on the bus,i overslept and go past a few more stops.
if not for michelle,i think i will be heading to marine parade. phew.
even now, i'm tired. i feel like sleeping but i also want to play basketball later. sighs.
so i will just nap awhile. hope for a good friday night out with them later.
but i think some of the nieghbours can't make it. yawns.
will blog more later on. |
| ranted by Bobby
@
7/01/2005 02:34:00 PM comments
|
|
|
|
|
|
