i believe i'm nice enough for everything i had done for you.i tried my best but maybe i'm still not used to your way of living and expressing.sometimes i really gotta tell myself "i'm gonna give myself more time as i mentioned before"it can come to an extend when sometimes things just get out of hand.insecurity is one big part that is living in between us, perhaps just me.i know you are already trying to show you are nice and everything therefore i don't really requested more from you as i really don't want to spoil the whole day just by making a comment.i want our every moment to be happy and memorable.i won't force you to do the stuffs you won't like too like taking a simple picture?perhaps i tend to be more emotional and keep note of every detail of our stuffs.like the first day we met? the first liking? the first of everything?i don't think anyone will be like me that crazy but i just like being myself.i'm glad you are happy with you achievement in your abilities to study your whole physics book and i want the best for you in everything. everything i do, will you like it? will u be affected or something?is an extra burden that i'm gonna take when you entered my life. i'm not complaining here but i want you to know, i'm willing to take your burden. things will just get better isnt it?i'm gonna define all odds and work hard for the future.i hope you guys friends will understand and not suan you or whatever shit.endure for 20 more days. i can do it. god will plan more and help me find out more,most imptly understand you better. every time spent with you is precious.-at least who took one like this. because you live, i live? we shall see about it. missing you...
