I wonder how do people find a lasting one? Just when things happen to turn out nice... F.
Tomorrow is my appointment for physiotheraphy. I'm still thinking whether should I go. A secret. I don't like to go to the hospital alone. It's a thing in me :(
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It comes in handy for me now.
How true.
And yes, I know that's abit gay.
Way Back Into Love
[Verse 1] I've been living with a shadow overhead, I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed, I've been lonely for so long, Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on!
(Hugh Grant) I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away, Just in case I ever need them again someday, I've been setting aside time, To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!
[Chorus] All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it true without a way back into love. Oooooh.
[Verse 2] I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine, I've been searching but i just don't see the signs, I know that it's out there, There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!
I've been looking for someone to shed some light, Not somebody just to get me through the night, I could use some direction, And I'm open to your suggestions.
[Chorus] All I want to do is find a way back into love. I can't make it through without a way back into love. And if I open my heart again, I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end! Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.
There are moments when I don't know if it's real Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration Not just another negotiation
[Chorus] All I want to do is find a way back into love, I can't make it through without a way back into love, And if I open my heart to you, I'm hoping you'll show me what to do, And if you help me to start again, You know that I'll be there for you in the end! Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.
I feel like It took I. I know me so long to love. it takes time.really like her Who can understands.a loser. At times Jon .can be more than that. how I feel? A couple perhaps. I doubt anyone can read prayed to him again what I'm typing. I tried so hard.kind of fall.When I believe , I failed so fast.Today when I've been really patience in terms of everything.want you to be happy I really hope I'm given a chance to try again. But I feel we I That It's terrible.it's time for me to do so I . So I can see you smiling at me later.I know how But..the results are pending, I .need a break I was so worried.That time when you are at night,feel already I prayed to God for your safety. going home alone
Thanks for trying to figure out this. I love you saj.
PEOPLE! Feeling bored and tired from school projects and works? Fret not! I have something interesting for you people out there! It's a video! A pretty interesting video by my Bondevia crew aka friend Lucius! He gathered a few of us for a shoot and came out with something like this!
Have a good laugh from the starting till the ending!
Comments are welcome.
That's how life should be! People, free your imagination like how Lulu does it!
Today is a special day! It marks the day where I don't have to drive with a yellow plate. Because it's been a year since I got my license. And it's also the 1000th post for this entry!
Yes! My "mama" is back from Spain! It's good to see her once again after such a long time! Most of us met up for a movie at Dhoby Ghaut! It's really heart warming that quite a number of familiar faces turn up. I hope Jasmine won't feel leftout as she is the first friend I brought along to meet up with the expats. I mean I haven't seen them for very long due to projects! Jeremy still the same old self! Always full of "faces"! BUT I LIKE IT! I must learn from him more!
Thanks for the "cracker" Maria! Nicole and me were so nervous upon opening that! So I received another 2 gifts from her and Jeremy.
It's a blue Nike cap! The material is really smooth! I like that shiny tick! ;) I got a Oxford's polo t-shirt! I didn't take a picture of it because my mum is washing it. I guess she knows us well enough to buy what we people needed.
Anyway, National Treasure is worth catching! The storyline is good but abit draggy.
Alright, back to school! This is the reason why I'm missing in action for volleyball and basketball. I miss alot of outings with friends and family because of that! Grr! But now, things are settling well but still must rush and sacrifice my sleep at times. And I really mean not sleeping! Surprisingly I can take it!
When we are stressed...
When we get disagreements...
When we work hard...
When we joke and tease around... (p.s - He is my bickering partner)
But regardless of all, I must say that this class of us bonded really strong and united. With all the mahjong sessions and staying back at library sessions and etc... Ok, maybe just a certain people of us that makes up around 10 people? :)
Random time! Maybe I'm slow! This is the first time I come across this 20 dollars note.
Lastly, I finally got this on my hands.
Yes! It's the Slim white PSP. I longed wanted it but I always don't bear to buy it! But now, I feel it's time. Games, Movies, Pictures and Music!
It will come handy. 2 more weeks plus, everything will be over.
Didn't you want to hear The sound of all the places we could go Do you fear The expressions on the faces we don't know It's a cold hard road when you wake up And I don't think that I Have the strength to let you go
Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
There goes my ring It might as well have been shattered And I'm here to sing About the things that mattered About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong
Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
And someday, I promise I'll be gone And someday, I might even sing this song To you, I might even sing this song, to you And I was crying alone tonight And I was wasting all of my life just thinking of you So just come back we'll make it better So Just come back I'll make it Better than it ever was x2
Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place
Maybe it's just me, Couldn't you believe That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place ( I want it all, Don't leave right now) (I'll give you everything)
This is one of the songs I love. The nice strumming of the guitar and catchy phrases to describe me when I'm in doubt. When I get confused, here you go. It's like two different world. Maybe, maybe it's you. Maybe. I'm afraid.
Few days back, at around 4am, the door knock was heard. There he is coming back from Switzerland! That was a BIG surprise because he didn't tell anyone he is. He entered my mum room and my mum who is sleeping was still in a daze. She thought it was me. But he told her, "You ain't in a dream!" I guess that melts her heart when she realised it was my older brother. Which mother won't long to see her own son after 6 months of being in overseas?
Thanks for everything today! The company from NYP till Tan Tock Seng hospital. Sorry to delay your time as you need to teach a dance class. I really feel loved today.
Thanks to Cindy and Alex who made a trip down to check out on me. Thanks Maria who wanted to make a trip with me too. But Maria, do take care of yourself too yea. I know rest is needed for you. Thanks for the thought. Thanks Melvin for being concerned about the results. Hugs for all of you guys. I'm really touched. Regarding the result, I'm not really sure what is the real problem. Owells.
Anyway, Jasmine is a friend that I made a year ago during our modeling roadshow. We didn't really talk until recently. She's a nice friend! :)
This movie made us walked out cursing and stunned.
Yes, I am never lucky with watching a nice movie. And this time, it's no miracle. I watched a -5 stars movie. In fact, I got no idea where should I start to rant about this movie. But if you are really free, go watch it! You will understand what I mean by then. I hope Daniel will make a GOOD review about it.
You guys must be thinking that I'm tired and breathless with the loads of projects I have isn't it? Well. That's not really the case. Maybe half of it. But I realised something which is quite bad. I don't even want to imagine about it. Yes, it's my back. Precise, my spine. It aches up every few minutes all the time and requires me to "crack" it somehow. It gets kinda tight so I have to "loosen" it by "cracking" it. A lot of people ask me to go for a checkup or x-ray but I refused.
Maybe,
I'm too tired of it.(It never gets better) I'm too afraid to know the outcome.(If it's negative, I will not be able to do alot of stuffs) I'm don't like to go to hospital alone.(That feeling) It's too expensive!(Everything needs money nowadays) There is no time for it(And time as well)
I told myself I gave up on going to the chinese physician because I have to go at 6am just to get the queue.
But until this morning, I felt something weird. I get breathless easily and get tired after just awhile.(I used to run a lot with being worn down) I know this is getting out of hand soon.
People will be normally spending their last day of holiday, playing their heart out. But on this first day of year 2008, I'm doing something different. I attended my ex-neighbour's funeral. It's the first time I attended a church funeral. With all the church mass and all at St Vincent De Paul. They moved out when I'm 8 years old. I still got a recap of how those 3 children of his are like. But today when I saw them, I was quite stunned on the changes on them. Their father left them for heaven but I guess it's a good thing too. He will always be up there looking out of his family and relatives. I walked past the coffin and saw his peaceful face. He died because of brain tumor.
Those sorrows in everyone heart can be felt by the silence and weeping. It's heartbreaking to see how well his wife compose herself. I can really imagine how it feels to lose my own parents. Treasure your parents everyone. Really.
As we pray, he left for a better life. He will always be remembered in my heart. I'll miss you, Uncle Thomas.
Another chapter of year has just ended. It's the beginning of a new story. I hope this will be a promising year 2008 ahead.
Let's see what I got for Christmas. Here's some gifts and cards I got overseas and locally.
I will start the ball rolling by the cards I received. They are from Sherry, Mossy, Nicole and Maria. Thanks for remembering! I mean nowadays who still send cards right? It's nice of them! Actually small gestures or thoughts of a gift is good enough. I remember that's what Rudy told me. I agree with him somehow. Rather than those that don't even make an effort or just take favours on people only.
The first card was from Sherry! She's nice! But what she says inside wasn't that nice. Lol! But I still appreciate it pretty much. It's from Precious Thoughts!
The second card I received. It's from Mossy!
The third card is from Nicole. She's my ex-neighbour. Why ex? Because she migrated to Australia already. Haha! I got her a really BIG BIG CARD in return!
Last but not least, it's from Maria! Hers took slightly longer because it's coming from Madrid. Her favourite! Cats!
Now let's move on to the gifts. I got gifts from Melvin, Rudy and Nisa! This year gift is kinda inspiring and somehow meaningful. Let's see. Rudy got me a pair of sunglasses. It just give me a feeling that yes, I've been seeing things in the dark. It's time for me to get out of it and look forward to the light out it.
We will move on with Melvin's gift now. He got me a shirt. A pretty stylo-milo(living up to his name) one! I feel the shiny part of the shirt is the unique point somehow. But what capture me is the sentence of line. "Heart Ware Change" It's the new year. It's time to change to someone better I guess. I feel I'm good but maybe I can be better? Let's see.
The last gift I got is really significant and inspiring! When Nisa pass it to me and says this. I was quite amazed she remembered me telling her something. She says, "Bobby told me he wants to be some good guitarist in future." So I guess it's best to get him this. And so... I present you. GUITAR PICKS!
It's Jimi Hendrix guitar picks! So it doesn't cost cheap. I will appreciate it Nisa! I will pick it well!
Lastly, thanks for this friendship band. It will treasure it well. I will.
I set my new path with faith and will. Well. Resolutions? I'm still thinking about it.
