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Tuesday, May 31, 2005 |
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just for information for those i'm mixing around with nowadays-
i'm kinda getting fed up and irritated easily so don't mess around because i don't want to be twisting arms once again. the feeling isn't good.
i'm just not feeling right. maybe you guys shouldn't mixed around with me or else sometimes u all just perked me up with your actions. all these can make me to another person which you all won't wanna see and which i don't want to turn out to be.
i'm simply confused ! someone help me out. is it the lack of sleep that causes all this?
that feeling of being alone is back once again. sometimes i'm just too tired to explain everything and like even talk. but this can be mislead to me being acting cool or unfriendly? NO!
i'm not the bobby that can be happy and smiling and crapping around. ive my own PROBLEMS & FEELINGS too. i'm not the boy that is living in that lalaworld i hope i can be.
this is all shit!!! ARGH!!! couldn't people understand !? |
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5/31/2005 09:47:00 PM comments
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Monday, May 30, 2005 |
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we are so near yet so far...
we can be close but yet to be seen...
i can't expect what would it be like seeing you in reality and not in the world of dreams...
i need someone who can be there for me when i need it right now...
off to the school for the first day. positive thoughts please (: |
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5/30/2005 06:57:00 AM comments
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Saturday, May 28, 2005 |
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went to breeks this morning for our long awaited treat.
too bad shianggling can't go.kinda miss her naughty behaviour =X oops !
well.. so alex,junhao,esther,dominic,kimli and dubo went along.
hee... american restaurant suits me because it served large servings which i ate fish and chips + beef bolognese and yummy ice cream.
seeing shiangg and him together so close makes me jealous but then im happy for them.
anyway, hangout with them is cool and we went to alex house after that.
playing basketball with them too but is like simple? haha! oops kimli! nvm. train hard to be bobby. anyway,i find that i'm getting closer to someone i don't even see before isn't it ?
but i feel we can just talk anything we want perhaps of the same age. we seem to share everything like our problems and stuffs. that is a good thing. stay positive.
god has all its planning up there. (: tomorrow might be the last night i can slack and play with u guys so i'm gonna cherish it. but i believe i will have time for u all too. hopefully...
tmr i will be going to church and maybe meeting them for someone haircut.
i shared ur sorrows always but i don't mind because i know when u had joy i don't get it.
but deep in my heart,your joy means my joy. for you jols. |
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5/28/2005 10:15:00 PM comments
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Thursday, May 26, 2005 |
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YES! once again i got a toe injury again. a deep cut and a think it cracked leaving a "blue" toe!
i'm so surprised by what angela does. she actually post one timetable of mine into my mailbox without telling me. she good! hahas! next time i should camp there ! hahas ! kidding.
a busy morning ahead with breakfast with mum and follow by meet up with minkai to nyp to collect my admin card and my booklist. saw a few familiar faces. i know quite a number of people in that school already. tomorrow morning i gotta go for another trip with my classmates this time. bought a present for dubo this time round and yes. a SUDDEN haircut. but i preferred it now, the way it is. met up with shianggling for dudu bday gift. she is so fierce. ok... sometimes ABIT gentle only. that's just for gags. school is starting real soon which is next monday and next monday is all my friends holidays. i'm gonna get it from there. hmph!
i guess the next two days will be fun. tmr shopping with tan junhao and play basketball IF I CAN. saturday treat from junhao and shianggling follow by dubo bday. woots! can't wait!
alrights.. i'm going for a slight rest. sighs. i'm unable to smile and be like what i use to be in the past. i just can't do it after that incident.
anyway, some reflections for today. i was on a long journey to school and this came to me.
being single isn't a bad thing actually.
you don't have to commit into anything.
you are as free as the bird in the sky.
everyone is fair in your heart.
you don't have an extra burden and worry.
you do whatever things u like.
ok bobby, the time for you to settle down ISN'T UP.
just stay the way i am for now.
-don't selfish la... sell me your shoes leh..! |
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5/26/2005 08:33:00 PM comments
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Wednesday, May 25, 2005 |
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my school new timetable is out and is like omg. wtf. wth.
first day of school. there is a 5 hours break in between. ending school at 6pm.
and long hours for most of the time.
sighs. is getting bored fom what i see.
hope my classmates will make me change my perspective view of it.
i'm going to get my admin card tmr with minkai and getting a gift yet again.
got one today for pauline. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
owells... i need cash seriously.
anyway peeps,i think i've recovered from the illness and thanks to those who asked me to sms if i can't get to sleep. u know who you are and yes. thanks !
i'm still waiting for the seoul garden mean from both of u. wheeee... |
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5/25/2005 10:33:00 PM comments
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Monday, May 23, 2005 |
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yesterday was one sinful night. i couldn't sleep.
i went to bed at 10pm and ended up sleeping only at 4am.
apologies to my family for the nuisance thing i made.
but this is how i felt. whenever i close my eyes, it will open up brightly.
this is a terrible feeling. im glad my mum and 2 brothers are there for me.
especially the younger one who actually slept together with me and cramp together.
i know is hard to sleep in a small bed so sleeping halfway through,i told him to move back to his own bed and i started to face it alone. it took me quite awhile before falling into deep sleep.
i got to learn upon something through this thing...
what's e point of having 1000plus friends when none appeared when you really need someone?
and the most surprisingly thing is that there is one friend who really cared and worried for me yesterday night. the problem is i didn't even see her before. she is non other then angela.
ok..she is one kind soul. my court friends? my church friends? all of them? where are u all?
wait... i seem to be talking rubbish.
i'm starting to get worry again for tonight. sighs. wat should i do ?!?!?
i wanted to cry out badly but i don't know how to do it.
-thanks mum, brothers and angela... only u all know how it feels.
i went to bed with a bible... |
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5/23/2005 02:17:00 PM comments
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Sunday, May 22, 2005 |
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man u lost to arsenal due to penalties.
man u deserved to win but then they didn't take their chances wisely.
well... this is how it is.
anyway, i'm really tired and sick of all the stuffs.
is just like u are making it bored.
i tried and tried but then u seems listless or can't bothered about it.
you won't know how it feels. perhaps i should just do what you are doing.
and i can do it. i don't have the mood for all this perhaps i'm really sick.
sighs. i don't think i can make it to church tomorrow again. sorry ryan.
*angela-we still got a movie to catch ;) don't forget.
*shiangg-learn to grow up and be a stronger girl. you can't be crying all the time.learn to face ur problems and face then bravely and think of how to solve. just an advice from me.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE! |
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5/22/2005 12:57:00 AM comments
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Thursday, May 19, 2005 |
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as i stepped into nyp, it marked a new beginning in life and friends.
with unfamiliar faces, environment and everything around.
i was assigned to a class of 20 which is balanced up with mixed gender.
went to school with my cousin and neighbour.
i just don't seem to like that environment which i can't settle well in.
as a result, i'm sick of the talks and touring of school.
left half way through my orientation and yet today i didn't go once again because i'm feeling
really sick. flu, headache and cough. sighs. my "chalet" is coming soon.
i must get well... need to rest.
and to all the people who tag,thanks. i'm fine and u all take care too (:
i'm spinning around.... |
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5/19/2005 12:06:00 PM comments
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Tuesday, May 17, 2005 |
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maybe i should start to pray for all my friends ? (:
alot of happenings had been going on.
sometimes i asked myself, is that a retribution?
today one close one of mine was on the verge of death while playing.
we were stacking on each other until she almost got caught out of breathe.
she turned purple and ok... everything was horiffied.
from a normal bobby to a totally silent bobby makes everyone ponder on what i'm thinking?
angry with someone? afraid of what had happened? worried?
well. sometimes i have no choice but to hide my sadness to myself.
some words i mentioned could be fake like i'm happy ? i just don't want *u to worry.
i'm turning sick with coughs. i guess insufficient is the key to it.
neglecting friends is another topic too. like shiangg and kimli say. they replaced u all?
not at all. we can all hangout together. if you don't like what they do, we can all talk things out.
we are all grown up teens and most imptly, WE ARE BEST FRIENDS!
i've made myself clear to everything and u know how important u are to me.
every single soul matters.
and i believed people wil lchange from bad to good. trust me. (: |
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5/17/2005 09:57:00 PM comments
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Sunday, May 15, 2005 |
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i'm finally back to blogging world.
tagboard seem to be spoilt or maybe no one is reading it.
well... i preferred this way as i know who is still my friends.
how should i start ? i'm really busy this few weeks hanging out with my cliques.
my guitar, basketball and everything including my parents.
i'll be starting school real soon and i don't seem to be looking forward to it.
life seem to be going successful for me which is quite good enough.
basketball skill has been improving for me too maybe by the motivation of friends.
the story of a sassy girl has started and everything seem to fit into
the missing pieces of a puzzle. i'm so eager about life nowadays.
and time and money seem to be insufficient for me.
could any kind souls donate to this pitiful soul? haha!
well... i shall save it up from eating so much. (:
i realised i'm talking rubbish! argh! |
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5/15/2005 10:06:00 PM comments
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Wednesday, May 11, 2005 |
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happy birthday junhao!
rozi and lydia! (:
i'm bored !
sometimes i really get tired and feel like giving up :( |
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5/11/2005 10:36:00 PM comments
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Wednesday, May 04, 2005 |
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damn that auntie who don't know how to jog.
which causes me to fall from my high speed bicycle.
ending up in injuries again and bruises. freak!
mr and miss ite competition went smoothly.
but one thing for sure, i realised i don't fit into that group anymore.
everyone changes and i kinda felt left out today when i'm back with them
perhaps this is life. :( |
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5/04/2005 08:07:00 PM comments
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Tuesday, May 03, 2005 |
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i ask myself whether i'm calm enough to blog this entry.
perhaps yes. ok... yes i am.
feeling abit kinda distracted when i got to find out something about my two friends.
i'm glad that they are going to be together soon or much closer.
seriously is a good thing but the thing is when will mine come again ?
i know this is stupid and stuffs like that. but many people keep asking me and i kinda don;t really like it. but what can i do ? nothing at all.
do i really have to like a girl that plays basketball too? the same interests ?
ok... ENOUGH of this r/s matter. i'm sick.
back to the topic, sometimes i really hope that i can be myself.
myself isn't the funny,smiling and friendly bobby actually.
he long wanted to be the cool and quiet type. sounds mysterious. well it is.
but he can't make it because people will start questioning like...
-not feeling well?
-bad mood?
-who offended u?
i heard that alot of times which is like so common.
i know my friends are all concern but now u know. i'm fine inside. maybe not for sometimes.
wishing both of u to be together really soon.
i'm happy that my basketball skills had gone up again but i'm not gonna stop just like that.
i'm gonna play serious. |
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5/03/2005 11:05:00 PM comments
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Monday, May 02, 2005 |
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what more can i ask for from a night so wonderful and fun during yesterday nightover.
everyone just went in place and turned out successfully.
the smile that u gave in the end of the day relieve me because at least i know, we didn't disappoint you.
upon seeing the both of you so happy and carefree made me think that friends are solutions to dissolve the pains, problems and hurts in the heart.
nightover with the guys in one room and another two in another room draw me so much more closer to all of you. even du bo whom i don't even know well in the first place.
this is what i still call life even without that *angel in your life.
prank calls.
throwing *ghost to the pool. [did i type ghost?] oops!
running barefooted in the middle of the night on roadside like some wild chickens.
playing human uno stacko.
blind mices in a room
sparring and doing all kinds of crazy and stupid things every here and there.
viewing different types of dogs esp that husky!
my cross pendant came out.
it might be her who pulled it down but it may not be her.
is this a reminder from god above who wanted to remind me to go back to church?
it might be some hints from him.
just for info, both the clothings and the cross is from my cliques back in school.
is inreplaceable. i don't want anything that is not from them because is a different feeling.
ask shiangg how it feels and she will knows how my friends surprises me with those thing.
memories brought back and i'm leaving.
i miss you all my ite friends.
that's what friends are for.
nightout and party late night. victims.
all of the below mentioned.
; shianggling; alex; junhao;kimli; xiaqi; dubo; youjing; <3 |
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5/02/2005 11:51:00 AM comments
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