i'm so stressed with 5 projects. two semester tests coming up. teaching her what i can teach her for her upcoming mock exams. facing the problems in the court trying to endure and overcome the barriers from the past. wanting her to be happy every moment. one week to do all these stuffs? and due to my itchy hands making me see some unseen stuffs which made me so down. i don't want you to delete please. i don't want to intrude in your privacy and past. i tried to overcome what i do not dare to do in for the past few years. after the breakup, i'm unable to overcome everything. sometimes i wanted to try it out, but i just can't to put my hand to it. you took it off or maybe you don't know but maybe we are not even an item yet. but one thing i know, i still failed to overcome that barrier of my past. is difficult and there is no help at all. i tried but i failed. therefore,i'm tired and losing CANfident(i mean confident). maybe i don't even wanna try it anymore. will it be the end for both of us like how me and others in the past just lose halfway thru an item?
i'm confused and sorry to say everything out :'( but this is how i feel.
