well... even salad my hamster left me for heaven this morning. angel from the sky from the heaven left me and put me to alone. all the bad things just came at a time which left me lost and tired. i cried myself to sleep yesterday... why is this so? the news of the dead of salad made alot of people worried. sorry about it. esther and shianggling was so nice enough to buy me new baby hamsters immediately. i'm sorry that i can't keep it anymore. seriously THANKS ! i appreciated it alot! sorry for u all to pay.i'mtotally right about what is on her mind because i prayed to god help. he kinda tell me through a unknown voice in my mind. i'm just disappointed that during that time when he neglected her, who is with her instead? what's make him with the right to go back to her in anytime he wants? isn't that right? people says guys in army are lonely that's why. even if i can't get her,i don't want her to be hurt be him once again. i may not know the reason on what he wants to be back with her but still. i will be praying him again. i believe *angel can think properly. like what my friends told me, what decision she made, just respect it. i will. yes. if she is meant to be yours, she will be one day. coming back to you... i will be waiting for that day. i'm sorry for assuming things but maybe they are together already? still ... my mouths are shut for now. the thoughts of her makes me moody. basketball skills started to get lousier. the distractions in lectures. i really hope to talk to her. just her voice will be enough. even a sms will do. but i lied to myself, alright. she is still slping probably. and that went on till 8pm. a blank sms will do too as i know that u r at least fine and safe. at least i cross ur mind. for tonight,i will wait till 3am again just for your sms. hopefully... i'm gonna blackout for the first time in my wholelife soon. they said man best friend is a dog. this is nono when i took him out a day with me when im sad. my friend upon seeing a accident today adviced me to express to u my sincere love because u never know when u will leave this broken world. find me a pest, but im gonna sms and tell her that. just in case.... bobby might be gone and vanished like my hamster... who knows.... :( not forgetting my brother who is with me all this while.. vinz and junhao. thanks !
