court is no longer the court filled with laughters and joys. sometimes i'm really tired to do everything. this is terrible. that feeeling of giving up everything. i mean EVERYTHING. i don't know why. like doing something that is meaningless and just doing for the sake of doing. and nothing comes back in the end? so sick and tired. the sudden mood swing. anyway, that someone is back from OBS safety. good. prayers do work u see. but who cares anyway? shit! i don't know what i'm ranting anyway.
