here come my monday blues on this sunday night. so fast and i'm like having moodswings yet again. so what if it is my birthday yesterday? well. received a giordano polo from ryan and gwen. thanks alot. makes me so much older than before. the thoughts of tomorrow school and the other projects i gotta complete is one of the reason. coming home on a sunday night spending it home alone with no one at all. the aftermath of a basketball game which i indulge into it makes me worn out. just like a cow that slogs under the sun for endless hours.
i just feel like talking about friends now. the best group of friends i made in this 18years of life. ranking from 1-7. in orders.
1.court friends. 2.ite friends. 3.church friends. 4.secondary school friends. 5.primary school friends. 6.online friends that i made. 7.nyp friends.
i hate to say this but i don't feel like i made any REAL friends except for a few in my new school. i go to school as usual for lessons. going straight home after lessons. that's a routine. nothing new. and they won't even like care about how are u doing, what you need at times but they will just come to you whenever they need help. this is how poly life goes like what my friends told me. but upon learning this, i changed too. i told myself not to be so nice to some that don't deserve it as i know they are "using" me. i'm clear of what is happening around my surrounding so i have no choice but to turn selfish in school.
another topic is regarding myself personal. which is like i used to say in the past few months that i couldn't get of my ex shadow. but i just realised that that isn't the main reason. i couldn't move on because i'm used to singlehood. i can't or maybe not ready for a new one yet maybe because of the number of friends around me and my basketball and guitar life. is like if i'm attached, i will lose them which is i don't want. but i neither wanna neglect my partner too. so the best is to be single and just go on and rock on in life. just be the cheerful sunshine boy who goes round laming and joke around. perhaps this is how i felt now but u never know the future. alright, off to projects.
