went to work with my cousin this early morning again and i swear i really built up my self confidence. sometimes i just had to endured with people faces and some are real hilarious.
upon finishing we went to meet our uncle up for lunch and he treated us to cafe cartel which is like so expensive. i felt so bad after eating. he is so nice to us! love you uncle! well... went to meet my daughter jols this time round and went bugis to buy some xmas gift? bought for her a chain from perlini silver and one for val even though i don't know her at all. but never mind. better than buying someone who will appreciate and says thanks rather then someone who just said something insensitive to me. it never happened to me like this before and she is the first person who let me taste something like this. "you don't know what its like to me like me?" can u feel how it is like to be jols? being used ? or what?! or what val said about me towards her is true? i can't mentioned name here because at least i know how sensitive sometimes people can be. after buying val gift alone,i just left for home alone. and during this period of time, i think the journey was so long and many thoughts come to my mind and kept me thinking of certain stuffs.unappreciative people don't get your good things u done ok? she will simplyforget after a day or even a minute? but i think after the breakup between me with her,i think it had change me into another perceptive of me? did i change into a more matured person? and doing stuffs more carefully and solving everything through thorough thinking? i also know sometimes things can't be forced the way u want it to be like. at least i tried and i tried... fcuk it! is not easy being bobby! i don't want to be bobby at all!!!! i don't want to go to school too! i wanna run from everything ! :... (
