I'm feeling down and maybe sluggish this past few days. What can make me feel this way? Maybe the hectic school schedule that drains my energy. Maybe because doing the same old thing again everyday. One thing I'm sure. It is all about FRIENDS.
Having many friends is a joy BUT having to keep them all close to you is a headache. This is how I feel now. I feel like many friends which I'm close to in the past are drifting away. Either we ain't talking anymore or they have other better friends. Is it because I'm making new friends? Or maybe because I got to entertain different groups all the time? Sometimes I hate being myself, Sometimes I hope I got just one true friend that stay besides me all the time, Sometimes...
When I'm young, she will protect me from the cane which is gonna land on me. Every saturday, I'll never fail to show up at her place to catch up with relatives. Everytime she will ask me how's studies and everything. But one day, I realised I got no time for all this. I missed all the gatherings and even visit to her. She fallen ill and even her heart stopped for a few minutes. My uncle told me, " Thank God for her revival." Amen. I really feel so guilty today when I dropped her a visit at the hospital. Although I might be smiling to her all the time BUT this time I feel the pain in he heart. She changed so much. She wrinkled. It is never too late to show care to her now. I make a promise to myself to give her whatever I can do now.
