sighs! my blog entry was not posted! i have to redo all over again. but i'm not gonna bull shit again. bought a new chalk pouch with vinz and he bought a SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANT toy?! what was he thinking of? who knows!? he is always weird. lol. well... back from j8 and went to the basketball court to play with kimli, eugene,junhao and friends. had a nice game with them and well... i over exert my thighs again. it hurts now! well... i'm used to injuries. but what's new!? had a chat with jeff this morning and our topic was on love. he got this thinking which i was happy for him. for me, i'm still unsettled. i'm confused at the moment. and kinda bothered and sad? let me reflect on what is on my mind.
1.the things we do&took together i treat it like priceless while she treats it like nothing special? 2.she is always on my mind but i doubt i'm in hers :( 3.i try many ways to commit in it but fate wasn't on my side. 4.things are fast but that's how i feel actually?
when come to some many problems, people will tend to retreat from this love. but i think if i really want this girl,i must fight and endure for it. god set up this for me and i've to pursue it. but it may be just a test for me or it may just be a crush he set for me? who knows? well.... but i will be always praying that he gives me the strength to hold on and the guidance to take me through all this barriers. i really want this to be my wish and i will try my best. i know he will help me if he thinks she is really for me. so...... time will tell everything. what am i really to her i wonder? enough of my ramblings.
anyway,thanks chris for what she told me and help me in today. really a nice friend from god.
