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Tuesday, August 30, 2005 |
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life is indeed getting better and better for me. but not for my friends in the court.
alex is getting down over something. everyone seem to be busy with some things.
this leading to an empty court. really empty and i have to slack for so long just for some1 to come. thanks amanda and kimli for the help of the dvds. i'm gonna burn it ! lol.
oh yah.. i finally handed up my semestral project and had my data comm practical.
i'm so proud of myself for finishing it first in class. extra marks.
i swear i'm only good at digital electronics and this practical only.
other subjects i can simple just kiss good bye. isn't that "wonderful"?
nvm.i will still work hard and do my best for the rest of the week.
one of my friend actually told me : "hey, how come u like so happy nowadays?"
i thought to myself and think, perhaps the stress is going off slowly.
i don't like the current basketball court presence now. always so distilled and quiet.
i rather stay at home and study. or go out with my friends. yea.
well.. i'm off to change a new blog skin now. i'm bored of mine.
credits to samm that pufferface girl (: |
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Monday, August 29, 2005 |
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projects are finally a breeze gone past me. i felt much relieved after that.
phew phew. pant pant. i'm going back to myself and back to my own life.
no commitment and hindrance. just live for myself.
my basketball, my projects, my tests, my friends,my neighbours' dogs and guitar.
this is what i call life. BOBBY's life.
i'm like more cheered up this few days although i'm not in court frequently.
i've other friends that i tried to talk and mix around with too.
i can talk to everyone easily and friendly. it just make my day.
hope that tomorrow test will be a fine one. and the one on 8 of Sept.
things will just get better. well... same for alex too hopefully.
take care brother. study hard everyone. just keep on going and going.
like this song says, wake me up when september comes.
is our period of examination soooooooooooo wake up!
i can sensed something is wrong with me and that meowmeow la. sighs. *crossed fingers* |
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8/29/2005 08:48:00 PM comments
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Sunday, August 28, 2005 |
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-* my creation!
i'm gonna take a break from the court. haha. starting from today.
no school tomorrow kids in the court. haha. kids mean kimli and to all the girls. haha.
who tell u all to suan me la! haha. just kidding . im gonna get things done one by one.
slowly.... |
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8/28/2005 07:01:00 PM comments
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Saturday, August 27, 2005 |
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projects must be done by tonight!!!
i'm so damn stressed la.
next tuesday coming up with a common test.
next thursday to hang up my projects.
gotta start revision for semestral exams on 14,15 and 21 september.
i msut perservere and hang on.
i won't be able to court too often.
must be able to resist. haha. off ! |
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Thursday, August 25, 2005 |
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this is getting terrible and terrible i swear.
i can't concentrate in class and my projects because of a conflict with a classmate.
anyway, whoever that can pick me up from where i am, i promise to be nice to you.
it seem like i'm at the lowest point of life.
reasons-->
1.projects dateline. (i'm left with two)
2.common test.
3.semestral projects.
4.that conflict. it do distract me too.
because of all these stuffs going through in my mind, it leads to easily frustration while playing basketball. just get real pissed off with my own team mates. but then, i can't blame them either.
it was a game after all. just let it be. but been absorb off those energy,i walked home dragging my legs and sweat all over. my mum talked to me and i kinda neglected her which i didn't do it on purpose. i was really too tired to open my mouth and talked. but later if i'm taking a short break, i shall go have a small chat with her. sorry mum :(
thanks avia who cheered me up and gave me advices on what i should do.
she is truly one good friend and yea. i will keep my promise mentioned earlier on.
to you...
where are you when i needed someone the most to talk too?
the one i always spent my time hearing your problems when you are down.
but where are you now i wondered? i really ponder sometimes and think abt it, are u even reading this post i'm gonan blog soon? :(
they always say all these shits came in one whole pile. its true.
i needa solve that conflict soon.
might avoid playing basketball tomorrow with my nyp friends.
i might watch them instead. much more relaxing and interesting.
please let me have something to look forward everyday god. |
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005 |
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i wonder if you ever step into this blog web here.
i wonder if you really meant to change.
i wonder if my words ever touched you and made you take note of it.
i seriously wanted to help but somehow your actions tell me otherwise.
how long can u go bobby? how far can u reach out for?
the answer seem to be a mystery to you and me.
i miss my twinny. i miss all my friends in court.
i miss my frens in poly. i miss those we can chat well with me.
i miss meow meow. i miss vinz and co.
i'm missing something in life... |
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005 |
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i hate liars. i hate last minute changes. :((
don't make empty promises if you can't compromise.
you know that the feeling certainly hurts don't you?
nvm. it will all change for the better please. it will, i guess.
projects, projects and revision for the upcoming semestral exams on
the following days are 14, 15 & 19 of Sept. this is so near yet so far.
work hard. and not forgetting , i love my twinny! ((:
oh yah.. i find that poly friends esp some of my classmates are selfish.
what my friends told me is true. they are kiasu and all. all for urself.
i'm referring to two girls in the lecture/class. who needs your answer ? grr...
pictures times... -this is my creation. 
-this is my twinny. 
-she is my twinny because we look resemblance somehow somewhere. 
-this is kimli's creation. this is better than the one coming up. 
-this is her work. gosh. =X 
-kimli better improvement after my comments. 
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Saturday, August 20, 2005 |
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READ THIS ENTRY ! meaningful!
is raining in the early morning and its just spoils my whole mood.
darn it and it just like raining for 5minutes? bleahs. make the floor wet! *fumes*
what should i talk about? maybe something that i have been thinking all the while.
i hope i can make something out of here
*one sided love*
-loving someone that doesn't love you at all.
-waiting at all means if you really want him/her.
-keep having high hopes of everything,thinking that motivation come from him/her.
-whenever your eyes are open, is him/her. whenever it is close, is still him/her.
-that's because you are in love with him/her.
-you always hope they accept or love you one day.
-you do alot/anything for them just to see their smile which melts your heart.
-you are wilingly to sacrifice anything just for their benefits.
-whenever they feel down,u gradually will try to cheer them up,but if you failed to do so, your mood will be just like them. when they are happy, even if you have the most serious problem in the world,you will never failed to put a smile just for her. isn't that awww... sweet?
-you will do alot of things for them but not expecting the same standard of return.
-whenever you know that they are out with someone and you always hoping to get a chance to go out with her, this feeling is terrible.
-you will think that whatever u told her is important and true, but to him/her it might means just abit to them, worst come to worst, it is off their mind the next minute.
-you just hope to see them every moment of time but that missing of him/her feeling is horrible and torturing.
-you just wish to talk to him/her like there is no tomorrow.
-you will do anything just to have a slight number of time with his/her companion.
-you hope that he/she will be there for you when you need him/her but you know he/she won't.
-you are worried about him/her safety in whatever he/she do. so u just keep worrying.
-you want everything to be the BEST for him/her.
-but the sad thing is that he/she won't take note of the things u say whereas you will just remembered and take notes of everything of what he/she says. even the slightest thing. :(
in conclusion, when you are in this situation, get ready for the sourish and torturing feeling that your heart might be getting. but this is sweet if you could hang on and just wait for him/her to rekindle that feeling and feel your presence. but if he/she ended up with someone else and this will be the sadest part but you know you have done your very best in everything and be proud of it. i know this is easy to say but what else can you do besides that ? cry? but if you really love someone out there, please let them know how you feel and tell them you love him/her because after telling her, you know you won't regret it.
god bless to those who is in this situation and hope your feelings will be made known to the one you love and gradually be an item after that.
this is for you to read. yes you, y0u and YOU.
this is how we have been feeling all the while. :( |
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Friday, August 19, 2005 |
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lalalalalalala...
i better post some things before late at night, it will be at the court, COURT and COURT!
i finally got some time to play in the basketball court.due to the busy schedule the past few days.
finally i can really play my heart out and just enjoy myself later.
upon walking home from school today, there is still breeze that goes past me.
it was a cool and right one. it makes me feel something like ...
"i live how i want my life to be"
no one is gonna control it. i don't have anything to worry or what.
i do what i want and behave how i want and most important..
to maintain a good discipline and lead others the right way. (:
anyway, my brother is home from his one week army camp. glad to see him.
i hope everything will be fine in school. it just gets better. |
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Thursday, August 18, 2005 |
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i'm currently not in a good mood now. i'm seriously disappointed and sad. :(
this is not getting any better but i guess it will be better to rant it out at the blog
rather than vent it on the basketball court later on. poor people. but i won't do that for sure.
i can feel something like it's raining inside of me. i don't want to face anyone.
i don't have the face to face them in fact. i failed cprogramming.
yes, i put up a brave front in font of my classmates but in my heart, i just feel like giving all up.
is this how i want my future to be? no! i want to do well but who can i approach?
what am i experiencing now is tragical. pathetic! :( grrrr..... !!!
i don't want to talk to anyone about this and i won't bother to answer it too.
i'm gonna face it myself and find the roots of the problem.
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005 |
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just came back not long ago from school.
and yes! this late. is damn tiring especially last night late night sleep.
my eyes are getting sore too. well.. quite normal actually.
2 days without going to court and i hope it won't be a consecutive third day for tomorrow.
because class end at 5pm this time and i need sleep.
i like this! the tension around our class is up (:
do my best and strive for everything.
things will get better in school.
and well for us, it just keeps going further and further.
apart till i don't know what's happening too :(
maybe this is how it is meant to be... |
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005 |
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the absence from the court of one day makes me feel itchy all over.
kinda like not used to it not going "home" for one day.
haha. well.. maybe the lack of mood and people makes me think twice before coming to a decision. stay at home and rest instead. (:
met up with that "jamie yeo" today for lunch.
haha. she keeps making me laugh and i can't eat properly at all. biting my own lips.
she is weird =P shhh... she keeps laughing and that's all. this is one example of it.
-the lookalike of jamie yeo.
back to school topic. today upon reaching school, i realised that i gotta present a presentation in an hour time. i quickly rushed it through and managed to complete in an hour time. it is beautifully done and presented out. now i'm left with two projects. i can't imagine doing a great feat in just half an hour. and we like delayed it for months. haha. i gotta start revising for my year end exams too. time to buck up (: the heat is up.
i'm back to my studies mood and that is a good news. i'm concentrating well and eager for school too. claps*
everyone starts to get really busy at this moment of time.
tomorrow is gonna be a long day for me. sighs. hope someone can sms me and like entertain me for fun. haha!
let's see....
8am-12pm.... normal school lessons.
2pm-3pm.... make up lessons for c programming.
3pm-6pm.... make up lessons for data comm lab lesson.
6.15pm-8pm.... guitar lessons.
phew! nvm. it will pass very fast
/////hopefully.. i'm off to study. (: |
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Sunday, August 14, 2005 |
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here come my monday blues on this sunday night.
so fast and i'm like having moodswings yet again.
so what if it is my birthday yesterday? well. received a giordano polo from ryan and gwen.
thanks alot. makes me so much older than before.
the thoughts of tomorrow school and the other projects i gotta complete is one of the reason.
coming home on a sunday night spending it home alone with no one at all.
the aftermath of a basketball game which i indulge into it makes me worn out.
just like a cow that slogs under the sun for endless hours.
i just feel like talking about friends now.
the best group of friends i made in this 18years of life.
ranking from 1-7. in orders.
1.court friends.
2.ite friends.
3.church friends.
4.secondary school friends.
5.primary school friends.
6.online friends that i made.
7.nyp friends.
i hate to say this but i don't feel like i made any REAL friends except for a few in my new school.
i go to school as usual for lessons. going straight home after lessons. that's a routine. nothing new.
and they won't even like care about how are u doing, what you need at times but they will just come to you whenever they need help. this is how poly life goes like what my friends told me.
but upon learning this, i changed too. i told myself not to be so nice to some that don't deserve it as i know they are "using" me. i'm clear of what is happening around my surrounding so i have no choice but to turn selfish in school.
another topic is regarding myself personal.
which is like i used to say in the past few months that i couldn't get of my ex shadow.
but i just realised that that isn't the main reason. i couldn't move on because i'm used to singlehood. i can't or maybe not ready for a new one yet maybe because of the number of friends around me and my basketball and guitar life. is like if i'm attached, i will lose them which is i don't want. but i neither wanna neglect my partner too. so the best is to be single and just go on and rock on in life. just be the cheerful sunshine boy who goes round laming and joke around.
perhaps this is how i felt now but u never know the future.
alright, off to projects. |
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Saturday, August 13, 2005 |
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due to the time constraint i will make a quick one here.
haven't got the time to blog since yesterday.
got tons of sms-es flooding in as the clock struck 12am.
it is the day for Bobby to turned 18 FINALLY. the legal age.
i will like to say a BIG thanks to everyone that greeted me through
-sms-es,calls,picture sms,friendster testimonial and ecards.
i love all of you and i'm surprised u all remembered.
a total thanks to 80 plus people in total.
my "HOME" consisting of 12 people(you know who you are), gave me a expensive jacket which i love alot. and i know is expensive. thanks guys and girls.
michelle who gave me a soft toy which i love it that time when i told her about it.so sweet of her.
nikki and wenxiong who bought me a converse belt which come in handy. thanks !
my another group of friends who gave me a chain for my hp.
early morning i went to meet alex and dom to find junhao in j8.
his CIP service. so funny of him! haha! always look so kuku in uniform!
the first time we 4 guys went shopping around the whole orchard for a pair of shoes.
that time was so fun and relaxing hanging out with them. hope for more to come.
after that left them for my another group of frens waiting at bugis.
they are one that can joke and play around with me.
i don't feel 18 whenever i'm with them. saw them whom i missed badly all this while! (:
though i don't receive any presents from them,but their presence is well received.
they always say is the thoughts that count.
after that i went back to court to meet my "HOME" but left a few people due to the late hours.
but i'm sort of high tide so i went to kimli house for a relieve.
then is like all planned out. they got out the presents for me.
the atmosphere was unbelievable.
they made a power point presentation just for me!
whoever wants to see it, tell me. I WILL SEND U ALL!
i'm so damn touched. i love them alot i swear. after all those sacrifices i made,it is worth it.
today was one unforgettable birthday i had.
thanks to all of you. YOU, you , and YOU!
i really don't know how to express myself but i do enjoy my 18th birthday.
oh ya. thanks for the HONGBAOS,from my two aunties that dote on me. my grandpa and grandma who care for me all the time. my parents too. thanks !
HUGS to all ! (:
-me and my best buddy.trying to be ah beng but we can't.
-we had some dinner at some ulul place.
-the gifts. the white jacket by home. the belt(nikki and wenxiong),toy by michelle. thanks!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOBBY,RAIN,ERIN,VALERIE and CINDY! |
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Tuesday, August 09, 2005 |
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BBQ at junhao house today rocks!
thanks to his parents, and every relatives who planned and organised these.
thanks to mich,junhao,alex,wenxiong,eugene,dominick,gabriel,andre,nathanial,havoc girls(shaingg,kimli,youjing),nikki,qiqi mei,jovina mei,eileen,april,esther,weechuan and jason who planned a surprise advanced birthday celebration. but this is not the end.
and finally thanks mich for that daring act she does. wahaha.
i didn't expect that either. owells.
i'm happy and i had a nice NATIONAL DAY celebration.
just that thinking of tomorrow school spoilt my whole day.
but a new change tomorrow. study and project time.
time to be serious... turning 18 soon. |
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Monday, August 08, 2005 |
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hope that tmr will turn out fun and fine in junhao house!
can't wait! i'm sorry that my mind is in a blank now.
school life isn't back for me yet. after tuesday, i must work hard already (:
she and nikki came over today just to slack.
no matter how we slack,time pass so slow.
i'm really tired that i dozed off just like that.
disturbance but some irritating "PESTS" haha!
they are so funny ! (:
well... time spent are worth it.
sorry that i forget to bring my ezlink card today ending up you going back yourself. |
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Sunday, August 07, 2005 |
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i'm so DAMN stressed with my projects.
holiday is like so long for me that i don't feel like starting it.
i don't feel like going school too.
i don't feel like doing many stuffs but just SLACK.
church today was fun and ME and that PHOTGENIC ryan forever neoprints.
took many times and we are running out of posts. i will post the pics when it is out.
gwen was taking with us and not forgetting wee chuan.
and i have a fruitful lesson today at the basketball court through kangwei.
i'm happy about that but i got no time to train for it.
i'm looking forward for tuesday BBQ! tmr school? sighs..
i miss you |
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Saturday, August 06, 2005 |
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everything was going fine today.
me and her fine.
me and my court friends all fine.
i'm running out of energy soon.
tomorrow will be a busy day with church. hopefully everything goes fine too.
next time i mustn't be early if i meet SN2 people for breakfast.
always make us wait only. haha! for one hour. -faints-
i need a break from everything.
basketball especially with a recovery going on.
i'm worn out for now. off to bed` |
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Friday, August 05, 2005 |
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my poor injured left thumb...
injured thanks to gabriel.
lalalallalallalalallalalallla..... |
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Thursday, August 04, 2005 |
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2nd posting for today..
perhaps the only way is to control myself and FOLLOW my heart.
hope that the flame will keep burning and hold on.
i went to watched Charlie and the chocolate factory. is nice!
go watch it ! i miss my friends whom im close with in the past.
ok now i got a secret i can't say out. only can say in blog.
kimli tell me not to say out to anyway that she says her jokes is nice and lame.
so i mustnt say. people don't tell me to say out coz u know i wont say out that she tell me not to say her jokes are really lame and "funny". I WONT SAY out! kimli , see.... u can trust me!
KIMLI jokes are so horny once again and maybe dirty? well.. that's her nature.
MRS HOH 0.o finally stop her M. thanks god. yucks!
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8/04/2005 09:25:00 PM comments
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woke up in the early morning today and then watched this show by edison.
nine girls and one ghost. quite meaningful in terms of life.
teaching me how to live happily for each day and stuffs.
but this lead me to another thing. should we become and item?
i know that i love her but there is something me from becoming further down.
i don't know what but i hope someone out there can like give me some opinion?
i want to be fair to her too so i hope a conclusion will be out soon.
anyway, i will learn to treasure my close ones soon.
my uncles and aunites and my cousins and all.
it's time i do something about it. been a long while since i last seen them.
alright, i'm off to bishan later for a movie entitled charlie and the chocolate factory.
hope everything will be nice and exciting. rainy morning day just make my mood gloom.
-this shows to a extent how bored it can be after post exams. lol.
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Wednesday, August 03, 2005 |
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sometimes i hate myself for being so sensitive,
but i guess i controlled it well enough compared to last time.
sometimes i felt abit neglected,
but i try to do other things to distract myself and not think about it or do the same thing too?
whatever i sms i mean what i say,
but not ending up to be said as was it a dream? or did you really do sms?
i don't know why am i saying this here instead,
but maybe i don't like to expressed it face to face.
i don't want to spoil the evening just like that
because i wanna see that happ and smiling face of urs.
i will try to change and take things lightly perhaps.
not thinking so much and maybe less initiative too.
changes, changes and CHANGES.
the machine is gonna function soon. |
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Tuesday, August 02, 2005 |
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The guy who loves you, can't tell you the reason why he loves you.
He only knows that, in his eyes, you are the only one.
The guy who loves you, although he always makes you mad, but whatever he has done is for your own good.
The guy who loves you, seldom praises you.
But in his heart, you are the best. Only he knows it.
The guy who loves you, will scold or complain if you didn't reply his messages or answer his calls because he cares for you.
The guy who loves you , only drops his tears in front of you.
When you try to wipe his tears, you are touching his heart ,
the heart which beats for you.
The guy who loves you , will remember every word you said , even if accidentally.
And he will use the word always at the nick of time.
The guy who loves you, will not give any promises that easily because he don't want to break the promise.
He wants you to believe him and give you the happiest and safest life ever after.
The guy who loves you, always tells you not to think too much, because he has already planned it for you.
He wants to give you the best life in the future. He wants to give you a surprise, believing that he can do it.
The guy who loves you, maybe can't remember those special occasions like anniversaries, but he does know that, every second he lives, he's loving you, no matter what day is it.
The guy who loves you, won't say "I love you" that easily, because everything he has done for you already shows that he love you. He will only say it at the special situations because he don't want you to misunderstand. He wants you to know that he really loves you.
The guy who really loves you, will feel that sometimes certain things only have to say once because he thought that you might already understand him.
If talk so much, he will feel that there's nothing you will cherish.
The guy who loves you, will go to the airport to fetch you but he won't carry a bunch a rose and call you darling like what you expect.
He will carry your luggage and ask you
" Why are you becoming that thin within two days?" with his sincere heart.
The guy who loves you, will listen quietly to you when you are mad.
When you have finished, he will say " You still got class tomorrow, sleep earlier." with a smile.
The guy who loves you, don't know whether he should call you when you are angry but he will send a message to you after few hours.
If you ask him why he called that late, he will say "When you are angry, my explanation are all rubbish. But when you calm down, my explanation will only really works."
The guy who loves you, always treat you like a little girl. But everytime he want to make a big decision, he will first want to hear your advice.
The guy who loves you, don't like little toys like teddy bears, but he will always put the bear you gave him at his bed.
The guy who loves you, while quarrelling, he will apologize although you are the one who's wrong. But later, he will say " Baby, actually you know its your fault, you know it urself."
The guy who loves you, seldom say sweet words. But you know, his kisses have already transfer all his passion to you.
The guy who loves you , if he can't always see you, he will try to make himself busy so that he will not have any time to think of you.
Because he knew, if he did, he will keep on missing you.
and yes, this is for YOU. |
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Monday, August 01, 2005 |
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well. after much consideration, i think i shouldn't post much about our life too much in here.
i shall keep it within ourselves and not indulge too much out.
my first ever test in nyp just simply screwed up. i did study but then is a different format.
i was confused and yeah. i can't do much. now i hope for was just a past will do.
i wanted to be the best but i guess is difficult now.i will work hard from now on.
trust me that i can do it. it is a matter or whether i want or don't want.
i want to have a good future and someone earning loads in future.
that's a dream, a POSSIBLE one if i work hard for it.
we met up today and had a short moment of time to be together.
was made fun of by wx and nikki.
well.. at least we laughed over it.
we are at the most natural moment and fine moment now.
everything seem to be going smoothly and i'm not asking for more.
we will keep improving and maintain it. (: isnt it?
hope she can still endure for two days. two days and u can relax abit.
alright, i'm off to maths revision.ahhh...
pray hards!
i love you. (: |
| ranted by Bobby
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